Madness - Sun And Rain

There is a light that never goes out

Perhaps it is a bit early to say it but I'm all goofy again. Underneath a seemingly bitter and cynical shell is a hopeless romantic who just wants to believe in something even though still remembering this is all just part of our biological and emotional imperative.

As the saying goes

Something like "every day you learn and with every step, you learn", something like that. I have spent years of my life with people who were toxic, controlling or just plain wrong for me despite the best, or worst, of intentions. It's just a shame that you only get one shot, one lifetime, to do this and you can't run it twice. Maybe now I've got the good hand, a favorable deck or maybe I'm just making my own luck. I do feel damn lucky right now.

Skinhead History lesson

Because no matter how much you try to explain it, there's always some idiots who just don't understand.

So yeah

Apparently some people don't want me to be happy. I know who they are and it's both sad and pathetic. I'm happy after a long weekend with the lady even though my back is messed up from work. Yes, I'm cautious after mistakes that I've made before but I don't think she's a Tracy.

Bubbly cack

The beauty is in the lack of pretension. There is no trying to be something she is not. It's take it or leave it, what you see is what you get and I'm crazy for that right now. I feel so very lucky right now.

500 miles

I'm bored and I'm restless. The "road and other dreams" has become "couch of complacency, boredom and other nightmares." Just a couple more months perhaps. Send me that tax return check and I'll be gone five hundred miles when the day is done.

I don't know where but I have to go, the predictability of the current situation scares me to death

Something I can never have

There's nights when I dream of her, she's lying there on fresh blue sheets, beckoning me forward with a "come hither" motion of her fingers. It's never just one person, sometimes it's the one that I let go, the one I couldn't have or it's a jumbled collection of past loves all jumbled into one beautiful, mocking specter. It's always something, someone I can never have and if I could, would I even know what to do with it even if I could recognize it? What's not to say that after a year or two, I'd get bored and throw it all away like I have done before?

Perhaps it is better to idealize that person and never have them, to wonder what if rather than find it and throw it away.

Fast cars and easy women

I'm trying something different. Not for the sake of morality or the extremely religious area that I find myself in currently. I'm not one of those "no sex until marriage" people. If I was I would be looking at a lifetime of never getting my freak on again. What I am doing is going back to taking it slow, not rushing relationships for the sake of convenience and not dating women who put out for everyone on the first night.

We'll see how this one turns out.

Rain on the bayou

Rain on the bayou

Oh lord watch it comin on down again

Across the flooded rice fields and Henderson Swamp

There’s a fisherman caught in the rain

And you caught up in my arms

Slow dance on the porch as the radio plays

Watch the drops come on down

Falling off Spanish moss and hissing off tires

On a cold winter’s day

It could be today and it could have been any time

Let me hold you a little bit closer

Watching the bayou rain